Gemini Jupiter: The Multi-Faces of Faith

an exiled Jupiter story influenced by the fallen Mars antiscia

During the week when Jupiter was approaching its direct station, I told my mother that I had almost given up on believing in God. Casually, I listed every single “god-loving-deeds-thing” I have done in the past two years to manifest a stable career offer or make significantly more money through suprasensory services to alleviate my circumstances. I told her that: I felt as if Allah had abandoned me or had not delivered Their end of the promise, so why should I continue having faith in our Beloved?

It was something I’ve been wanting to get off my chest and needing to say aloud because sometimes that’s part of the poison transmutation process of integrating the shadows and archetypes within our inner-selves of us: to name them, rather than shame them.

Our beloved Prophet Muhammad (SAW) once felt this sense of abandonment in his life too. Hence the famous Surah Adh-Dhuha was revealed in the Quran. The surah has been a potent angelic friend I’ve cultivated a deep intimacy with ever since I was a graduate student living in New York City - especially during the weeks when client works were dry and I have no idea where the weekly groceries money would derive from - wild!

Yet somehow, I am always fed and provided by the universe. Alhamdulillah.

The past version of my mother would have been furious, listening to these confessions of mine - she has a Sagittarius Moon, LOL. Knowing our relational dynamic, I did not expect any helpful responses from her, but she responded softly that perhaps my sabr (patience) with the universe is being challenged and that’s okay to feel that way. Her responses brought a sense of relief and surprise because parts of her empathized with the challenges I was facing, the burden I was carrying in silence.

Spiritually, it is a beautiful and cathartic process to be mad at god, to be angry with Allah. The concept of “anger” is inherently Marsian, and “god” is inherently Jupiterian. I thought about the subtle antiscia between the Jupiter Gemini & Cancer Mars degrees.

I’m sure if you are one of those folks who believe in some kind of higher power(s) and are witnessing the current world we are living in… I don’t blame you if you end up abandoning a belief system you’ve had, or forced to change due to circumstances in your life. It makes so much sense, astrologically with the Cancer Mars - Gemini Jupiter antiscia. To abandon something, is to make way for new beginnings. [side note: i have witnessed multiple friends converting religion or citizenship or location to legally marry their spouses with this transit too!]

Recently, I had an epiphany and made a carousel on Mars in Cancer as Poison Transmutation, poison transmutation happens when we are willing to accept our failures. a fallen mars unlocks memories of failures, failures may remind you of places you don’t (or no longer) belong in, it hurts (sometimes). alternatively, failures may remind you of places you do belong, the world is full of belonging [Jupiter - Mars antiscia]. choosing belonging in moments of perceived/real failures is the poison transmutation. when “failure” is the only poison of choice, we transmute it into multiple spaces of adaptive faith & spontaneous belonging.

Recently, I HAVE CHOSEN TO BE-LONGED IN MY OPTIONS

(1) I have chosen to be-longed in The Magician’s Table with Britten LaRue as their 13th Reader - if you choose to be in the program because of ME ~ do mention my name in the application form for a secret discount! Currently, the only way to get to the application is to be on the WAITLIST email - the application will be released to the mailing list on 27th February 2025 - apply ASAP because there are only 60 slots available, of which only 24 readers will be part of my intimate cohorts!

(2) I have chosen to be-longed in Malaysia. I am no longer desiring to move out of the country since Reality has created enormous resistance for me to do so over the years. Recently, it has taught me to choose something else, and perhaps I am choosing to move out of my house with my close friends (beloved BFFC) as housemates. I told my besties that perhaps working remotely has always been my path of belonging. The model has been proven through Suprasensory Shahir - so of course Shahir Shukor will be able to do a similar magical-digital-nomad-sagittarius-rising thing. May Allah Ease Everything For This Choice.

(3) I have chosen to be-longed in my role as a diviner, who offers transformative soul-centering conversation and radical heart-affirming guidance. Recently, I have decided to phase out my full birth chart reading titled Stellar Origin Story. A holistic astrology reading I started offering during my Aries profection year (Mars), and now I am at the brink of completing my Cancer profection year, where my natal Mars is activated. If you would like 25% discount on the reading, kindly help yourself with the coupon code FAREWELL <3 If you’re LGBTQ+, I am willing to offer as much as 50% abundance to honor your resistance given the state of the world right now, message me! If you have read my story, or listened to multiple podcasts I’ve been on over the years, you would know how important queerness/community is to my spirituality.

Regardless of whatever is going on with the world OR in your world right now ~ I hope you find spaces and places to be-longed: choose belonging, choose belonging, choose belonging - do not limit your options of belonging, the world is full of belonging. If Gemini represents Choices, and Jupiter represents Belief - this is the time to expand your choices through your belief.

Before Jupiter in Gemini direct clarity, I didn’t believe that I could THRIVE in Malaysia, due to my wounds and trauma of being an openly queer person here practicing the esoteric arts - but this time around ~

I AM CHOOSING TO BELIEVE I COULD.

I cannot give up on God,
because oh God, there are multi-faces of God,
God is everywhere and nowhere,
there are multi-phases of God too.

xo,

Shahir