seer sagittarius: losing hope and gaining faith
dancing with those who always have been... dancin
hello lovers,
peace be upon your tender hearts, i’ve been wandering a lot more this sag season. wandering through final group presentations + classes, assignments + papers, events + exams to finish grad school FOREVER; wandering with friends who are also free spirits at heart ~ indulging 420 gummies in between classes ~ being in awe with how brilliant most folks are; wandering the streets of nyc neighborhoods and dancing with those who ALWAYS HAVE BEEN (allegedly, older folks) at harlem night market. if you’ve been following me on social media (instastories + tweets), you would KNOW how extra magical my life felt recently. jupiter in pisces is *obviously* in charge of the sol in sagittarius party. praise jove for all the fairy dust.
on saturday noon, prior to the *dancefloor* night, i was speaking to daisy, my beloved friend since undergrad, on her podcast Daisyish Days below, we discussed astrology, tarot + client offerings with her ~ particularly my discovery and use of astrology ~
co-existing with all the Jove-love, there were also moments when i felt deep sensations of *despair* and *disappointment* with my (re)current financial situation for survival. certain hits of these “account balance is low” emails, nudging me towards a pathway of worry and anxiety; a rather familiar neural pathway since my aquarius saturn return started in 2020 and continued in 2021 and 2022. there were multiple *moments* where i screamed to the heavenly spheres: HELLO DIVINE, WE DO NOT WISH TO LIVE IN A SCARCE TIMELINE ANYMORE! PLEASE? there were moments when i questioned how did i survive these past years? by the grace of divinity and the support of community, i am fine? allegedly.
today in sabrina monarch’s meteorite community, we were tuning into the energetics of the 2nd house in astrology, especially the domicile lord of the house cusp. for me, i have capricorn occupying my 2nd house of livelihood and personal resource. thus, my dearly domiciled saturn is the ruler ~ unsurprisingly, i contributed to the community call by talking about the role of “time” as an important framing of the 2nd house - through the lens of saturn. in particular, the role of more fluid exchange between time and money. for example, direct transactional framing of time-money of my services would be: this year, i charge around USD120 for a full birth chart reading for 80 minutes. yet, for me - i do not witness the “income” as purely a USD120 transaction during THAT exact moment + my chart preparation time before the sesh. inherently, i know (3rd house saturn) there are more significant impacts at play when i am witnessing and celebrating a client + collaborator in a session: the clients themselves would also become part of something i “value” as a resource because perhaps these are the clients (connections) who will spread the words of my services to their intimate circles later on, these are the clients who put TRUST in my astrological voice, these are the clients who would find me as a reliable diviner in their lives during transformational times, these are the clients who would pray for my growth, there are the clients who would be important… sometime in the future, beyond current payment.
[tangent] this somehow reminded me of a thread i made on “capital” through the lens of derivative houses:
another great example of disruption of time-money linearity is when folks offer sliding scale readings, perhaps what they are “valuing” more is the experience of time with clients themselves, or perhaps they value more the accessibility of their services rather than the monetary exchange alone. reshaping our relationship with time spent with our crafts also reshapes our relationship with money. thus for me, in my current reality, i wish to disentangle the belief that i can’t have a great TIME, just because of my lack of money or the lack of clients. to have FAITH in the quality of our time spent, with OR without client sessions, is a way of personal resourcing the 2nd house.
collectively, unlearning and relearning our relationship with money, moolah, and resources have been pivotal through the taurus north node and scorpio south node transit. i don’t think the question is limited to our relationship with money, it is also our dependency and addiction to money as values or ideals of living a fecund life.
sagittarius season ingress transit
“if more of us valued food and cheer and song above hoarded gold, it would be a merrier world.” J.R.R. Tolkien
sagittarius season egress transit:
“hope is never mere, elrond… even when it is meager. when all other senses sleep, the eye of hope is first to awaken, last to shut.” High King Gil-Galad in The Rings of Power.
xoxo, shahir
we love, we are loved, and we are - love.
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