Venus In Gemini & The Intimacy Of Secrets
there is a secret temple, behind the spring waterfall, where love secrets, exchanged...
Dear Lovers,
Alhamdulillah, praise the Expander of Universes (Ya Basit), within less than 2 weeks of fundraising, I managed to gather enough money to purchase a home-bound ticket, final month rent + food, and other “final” NYC expenses through donations and session bookings, I never doubted us - and I loved that because this has been my sure-est decision I have made since the hell-long Mars in Gemini transit, it felt so aligned!
Thank you so much to everyone who uplifted me directly and indirectly, my big heart jumps to the highest of mountains and sinks to the deepest of oceans, 1000x blessings your way Lovers!
One of my gradschool besties, Andreina, reflected back at me recently - how important it is to celebrate graduation with the people I LOVE, and truthfully the diploma has never just been about *me* alone - although it was my personal Saturn in Aquarius 3rd House journey. It made so much sense why I choose not to walk if none of my family members would have been here to witness my 6 of Wands moment ~ the decan where my natal Leo Chiron resides in the 9th House of Higher Learning. For me, going to graduation “alone” would have been a more painful experience than skipping them altogether [sidenote: I know if I were to ask my Carolyn, Sam and Julie (Berkeley Pseudoroomies NYC) + Amiera (from DC) + certain friends to be there for my graduation walk they would in a heartbeat! But, that’s not the point here.]
Alas, I am going home, and my heart feels the ancestral radiance of homecoming, under the upcoming disappearing dark Pisces Moon of April 17 - I, too, am going into the dark goddess mode to end the final days of Ramadhan, a highly spiritual month for me, and for most Muslims around the world.
Sincerely, I wanna thank everyone who has impacted my life in the past 2.3 years of my life in New York City! With so much Love, I am bringing my 6 of Wands graduation photoshoot celebration home, PLUS celebrating Eid Mubarak / Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri and one of my favorite Gemini Sun beloved baetch wedding of the year (Maha & Gulraj) - oh you know how much I LOVE WEDDINGS + FRIENDS!
I’ve been thinking of transit Venus in Gemini (answering to Mercury in Taurus in her 12th place) as a lover who loves secrets and exchanging them as a sacred act. Exchanging secrets is inherently an act of Love in any relationship, sometimes the exchange is intentional and intense, and sometimes it is casual and carefree.
Stereotypically, people assume Geminis are not-so-great at keeping secrets and that’s only a surface-level story, not the entirety. There are tonnes of Gemini walking around collecting and keeping the secrets of another. Fundamentally, Gemini has to share secrets for their own soul survival - because the paramount role of Mercury is to be a translator and transcriber of human experience. One cannot fulfill THAT role if there is no one on the other end giving and receiving the secret stories. Gemini lovers receive, share and exchange secrets - because it is part of being human, it is part of being intimate with the world around us. Venus in Gemini secretly whispers to our ears to embrace sharing of secrets between beings.
Do you remember the intimate moments when you share a secret with one of your lovers? How relieved you are knowing that you are not the only person who bears the unbearable weight of knowing? Or how enlightening it is to have a richer perspective from another? Or how bizarre it is when those small secrets change into something bigger later on?
Do you remember moments when you receive a secret from one of your lovers? And you giggle because, for a sweet moment, you feel how hilarious life is ~ or how fucked up life is? Or how the secret felt resonant for your own life experience currently? Or how it adds a lil sweetness to your mundane day? Or how it makes you feel that you are worthy of keeping sacred information? Oh the love… of sharing secrets… oh the orgasmic feeling when someone says “this is just between us…” *sips tea*
Life is too short for a Gemini to only be keeping secrets, thus a potential Venus in Gemini ritual is to share wild and simple secrets with your loved ones - tell them the worst secrets about yourself, tell them the best secrets about yourself, tell them a secret no one else knew about yourself, or another! Secrets are so intimate, and since Venus is in Gemini ~ intimacy comes through the changing nature of words… here’s a poem I wrote for us:
there is a secret temple,
behind the spring waterfall,
where love secrets, exchanged
lover and beloved,
whispering with the waters,
hot-bodies mingling and moist-lips giggling,
secrets pollinating, love blooming,
when i tell you to “meet me at the temple,”
oh, how your mind has secretly arrived,
shhhh… even before the meeting of our twin-mirroring bodies
Your Love Devotee,
Shahir