Lunar Return Revelation (Three60)
remembering queer futurity || jupiter in gemini & saturn station retrograde in pisces: hope vs. doubt & despair || giving up the future is not an option for the oppressed
dear lovers,
I’ve been thinking a lot about our relationship to doubt & despair with Jupiter in Gemini. Logically, I would attribute the qualities of “despair” to more of Saturn (via Capricorn - the place where Jupiter has a fallen dignity) and less of Mercury (via Gemini/Virgo - the place where Jupiter has an exiled dignity). Thus, to the astrology nerds & enthusiasts out there, “despair” might be a word/quality I would associate more with a fallen Jupiter in Capricorn (think 2020), rather than the current exiled Jupiter in Gemini (June 2024 - June 2025). But… stay with me here ~ and probably quote me:
Doubt and despair are often intertwined… any living beings who have danced with the demons of doubt, have sung with the angels of despair.
According to ancient astrologers, Gemini and Capricorn have a hidden sign-based relationship (contra-antiscia) with each other despite being aversion. Contra-antiscia is the ability to sense each other through the “hearing” (commanding and obeying) direction. Thus, to put matters into context, there is something about Jupiter traversing in Gemini that spirals us on a pathway of remembrance and commanding the Capricorn planets/points/transits in our lives.
In some ways, something about our current astrological moment reminds us of the rupturing events and the restructuring of societal orders we experienced between December 2019 and throughout most of 2020 ~ the COVID-19 pandemic / the role of international bodies such as WHO, the killing of George Floyd / Black Lives Matter movements / police state, the Abraham Accords that began the normalization of certain Arab states (UAE, Morroco, Bahrain and Sudan) with Israel, the transfer of power from Trump to Biden, Brexit etc. I am NOT a mundane astrologer so I will stop further elaborating on the implications of world astrology between then and now ~ though I am STILL a pattern-seer-philosopher, and I must honor my perspectives.
Perhaps, the present situation of Jupiter in Gemini is casting doubts in the air on the decisions some people have made in the past regarding one’s life. [IMPORTANT] One thing to note is that natal delineation of transit astrology is significantly different than mundane astrology thus we can’t simply conclude that some decisions you made in 2020 were “bad” or “good” for you just because the astrology was relatively difficult back then. Everything is dependent on your cosmic timing!
My point on contra-antiscia here is - how have those past decisions you made (or were made for you) and experiences changed your relationship to doubt and despair in 2020? How about now?
Another signification of Jupiter is order - thus how has your relationship to order and integrity with yourself and others (people, places, authorities) changed since then too?
Let me know in the comments below ~ I’m curious…
Gemini is a place where doubt exists, yet doubt is not necessarily something bad or escapable. This is perhaps why, I think, Jupiter has triplicity in the air signs (Gemini, Libra, Aquarius). Because air signs are related to the role and exchange of knowledge - something Jupiter has an affinity towards. 2 of 3 air signs are represented by “humans” imagery indicating the cerebral capacity for the role of knowledge: connection & collection (Gemini), assessment & judgment (Libra), and decision & preservation (Aquarius). Jupiter in Gemini has triplicity support ~
In Face I of Gemini, Jupiter is inviting us to bow towards our multiple curiosities, no matter how overwhelming or transient they could be. In Face 2, our curiosities are spurred into brave actions amidst lingering fears and doubts - a double-edged sword situation, sometimes a never-ending existential question. In Face 3, a choice is made between binary and duality, and we pray our choices will lead us to better outcomes. Sometimes our final choices mask themselves as surrender and submission to something bigger, but big or small ~ we are never assured of peace.
Especially, with Saturn in Pisces being in the 10th place from Jupiter. Planets in the 10th from another can dominate said planet through their authoritative and impactful/stressful rays called decimation. Thus, although Jupiter is in charge of Saturn as a guest in his nocturnal realm of Pisces… Saturn is a sobering guest, that dries up the healing ocean OR contaminates it with lead, becoming undrinkable.
In thinking about the past month, I was deeply feeling the Jupiter in Gemini of it all, especially in reimagining my being as a Queer Muslim wanting to have a deeper relationship with community and belonging. In June, I went to Rainbow Rojak, an underground queer community night out with talented drag artists & DJs, with my chosen family to dance our hearts with the local LGBTQ family. Within the same long weekend, I volunteered with my traditional/religious father at our local mosque for a qurban event for Eid Adha. Sometimes, embracing duality makes us feel out of place, especially when such '“duality” involves interacting with the dogmatic and patriarchal aspects of religion. Yet in other ways, embracing duality makes us remember our choices are always ours - and how we create the best from whatever is given to us. While it is helpful for anyone out there (especially LGBTQ folks) to be in a space that celebrates them, sometimes it is rather egotistical to think purely through such a lens - especially in community mingling and relationship building. Because of that, I’ve been thinking about the words by the legendary scholar José Esteban Muñoz on “queer futurity” in his book Cruising Utopia: The Then and There of Queer Futurity (2009).
Queerness is not yet here. Queerness is an ideality. Put another way, we are not yet queer, but we can feel it as the warm illumination of a horizon imbued with potentiality. We have never been queer, yet queerness exists for us as an ideality that can be distilled from the past and used to imagine a future. The future is queerness's domain.
José Esteban Muñoz
Something about the quote above made me think about the dynamic between Jupiter in Gemini & Saturn in Pisces in our lives, or maybe it is speaking to the opening square of Jupiter-Saturn, regardless of signs. In December 2020 and most of early 2021, during the Jupiter-Saturn conjunction & copresence, I felt deeply that “oh, the future is here?” at least for my cosmology, perhaps for some of you too…
Yet now, just like how “queerness is not yet here” as claimed by José Muñoz, our future ideals are being reimagined with these upcoming squares, distilled from the Piscean waters of the Saturnian past, and used to imagine the Jupiter in Gemini choices and potentiality available for our future.
As we wait for the 3 exact opening squares between these two giants. The first square features a retrograding Saturn - a structural review of our hopes, cultivated through divine timing and mastery of compassion. The second square features a retrograding Jupiter - a reordering of belief and recollection of the brave yet conflicting choices we have made thus far… and eventually new worlds emerge from the cardinal sign square in the middle of 2025.
On another note, I’ve been slowly working on a piece related to Saturn in Pisces (Face 2), especially with the ongoing genocides and the desensitization of death we are experiencing on a global scale. There’s a part of me that feels like giving up… yet I am constantly reminding myself, that “giving up the future is not an option” especially for the lives of the oppressed. Ending the newsletter with a final quote by José Muñoz to think about then and there:
The here and now is a prison house. We must strive, in the face of the here and now’s totalising rendering of reality, to think and feel a then and there…
Queerness is essentially about the rejection of a here and now and an insistence on potentiality or concrete possibility for another world.
Take great care, everyone ~ my Portal Revelations sessions are always open: HERE if you wish to have a personal chat with me on your astrological timing, especially if you have Jupiter/Saturn as important timelords this birthday year! I will be traveling from mid-August, so, I have started booking Birthday Blend sessions for Cancer & Leo & Virgo folks out there - birthday readings have always been my favorite thing!
Beloved by queer ancestors, and forever your Jupiter-Saturn love devotee,
Shahir Suprasensory
[PS: my progressed moon recently entered Leo, natal 9th house, and I’ve been in the “main character” mood to create a quarterly reel of my life this year! stay tuned]
hello there shahir, your writing is so beautiful. thank you! i too suffer from the friction between my dualities and resonate with you on that. that very morning after rainbow rojak i immediately slapped on my hijab and was in a car ride to Perak for raya haji and it felt so surreal eventho ive been doing this double life for years. queerness can feel so far from me on some days but it is being practiced! just need my reminders, and of course, community. hope to run into you again in the future - happy cancer season 🌹