Soul Devotion, Collaboration & Exhaustion
Virgo: Service Season, Understanding The Love & Limitation Of The Body
Virgo season was one of the busiest seasons for me this year, I can’t even recall all the things I did because I did so much, perhaps to a point of exhaustion and sleep deprivation. Thank god Libra season has provided a breather for me to write this post, as the Sun moves out of my 10th House and into my 11th. It was tough because I really tried balancing my personal spiritual practice, my day job which spilled over into my weekend time, my tarot reading offering, my presence for the people I love, and my presence for my self-love since Mars retrograde fucked some energies up. I am really proud, however, of the outcomes of things I really put my heart into. Yall should check out some of the things I did:
I collaborated with Nickey of Cosmic Consulting during the Full Moon in Pisces to deliver Divine downloads from the ether for each zodiac sign
I went on InstaLive with Lia from VirgoSunTarot for a September forecast reading through the zodiac signs
I wrote a satirical + informative post about Malaysia’s natal chart for Hari Malaysia here! Thank you JAKIM for the opportunity as a guest writer and a student astrologer. For your info: Malaysia is a Virgo Sun + Stellium, Leo Moon & Gemini Rising.
I created my official marketing post for my tarot reading offering. Please share this with your soul circles because I am really passionate about it and referrals/shares seem to be where most clients come through! I only host a few sessions weekly depending on my energetic capacity.
The Pisces Full Moon was somehow a very emotional one for me as I suddenly cried in my car on my way to work. It wasn’t really a surprise as the full moon was conjunct my natal Mercury, by one degree, and I am in a Pisces 4th House profection year where a lot of the topics explored have been about the idea of home, family and foundation, past and origin. I teared up as I was thinking about my blood ancestors, particularly my grandma who passed away almost a year ago - Al-Fatihah and blessings to her soul, and then it led me to a deeper analysis of the term “future ancestors.” I continued my post above in the comment section with:
Allow space for the imagination of our ancestors supporting our journeys of bringing the imaginal into the physical. It doesn't matter if we succeed or not, but our journeys will be of SERVICE to future generations when we are the ancestors. Imagination is a gift, imagination is a privilege, imagination is power, imagination is freedom, imagination is a birthright. Continue on future ancestors!
The Virgo-Pisces axis in astrology embodies an important aspect of what it means to be of service to something larger than ourselves. If Leo was the archetype of celebrating and witnessing the soul for themself, Virgo is the archetype of refining and crafting the soul to initiate towards something other than just about themself, with the idea that other souls only comes into the picture with the Libra archetype. This state of in-betweenness speaks to why the Virgo archetype has the tendency to find the lack, the imperfection, the improvement of micro-details because they are acutely aware of the shortcomings of our embodied souls and thus preparing their imperfect-selves to be of service to something bigger, perhaps greater, than themselves. That “something” could still be ambiguous because they have yet to relate with another soul through the Libra archetype. This in-between state also indicates the mutability aspect of Virgo, and eventually of Pisces. Pisces archetype had gone through the soul journey of all the 11 zodiacs prior to themself and the idea of service for them has to dissolve towards something beyond the collective embodied souls, something beyond the reality framing of the world. It is something fantastical, something ethereal that it feels almost always impossible or improbable. The Moon card in the Tarot is commonly associated with that of Pisces archetype and it reminded me about sitting with and listening to the unknown, the unseen, the illusions of it all. Most of the time, the only clarity The Moon card gives is the clarity of confusion and convolution as a constant, which somehow makes so much sense but is almost antithetical to the purpose of using the Tarot as a divination tool to answer a specific query! The Moon archetype receives and reflects the light from the Sun towards Earth but what is it that the Moon intends to illuminate at night through their different phases, when most folks are sleeping, snoring, and dreaming almost half of their entire nights?
My personal interrogation of the Virgo-Pisces axis is important as a life-long journey as I have a Virgo Midheaven + 10th House with its ruler Mercury in Pisces in the opposite 4th house. The midheaven is often associated with our soul legacy, how other souls will remember our imprint in this world. I was reflecting on how growing up I wanted to become a doctor because I want to heal people, though this could also be an Asian parent conditioning thing for some. For me, my childhood-self, up until the age of 18 years old, really wanted to become a doctor because I wanted to help and be of service towards people with disabilities, having had the experience of growing up with a brother with autism. There was a delusional and an innocent moment of childhood ambition where I wanted to find the cure for everything in this world! This thought truly screamed the Virgo-Pisces axis with the Healer-Dreamer archetypes associated with it. Here I am now, consciously aware of how this longing to be of service to the world has served for the better and for the worse for my sense of self. I am grateful, however, that my tarot reading service resonates deeply with these ideas and archetypes - especially when working with my Mercury in Pisces as the gift of a psychopomp. Wherever I am now, I am still searching and researching on potential pathways to fully realize this natal chart promises, and I hope my future studies would lead me there eventually.
During the New Moon in Virgo, I had a tarot consultation with Erin about my career path since I am already reorienting it towards something new and exciting, though mind-induced fears, surrounding that leap, persist. They reminded me how the capitalist construction of productivity has led to the unfair judgment of certain types of labor which are not viewed as productive. How it is important for me, at the core, to surrender the societal-perception of my future works because that is how I could truly embrace my path with much celebration and devotion. They also reminded me of how in choosing our paths, it is us - our bodies, our mental labor, our emotional labor, our physical labor, our spiritual labor who are enduring all these obstacles snd hardships. Thus, we shouldn’t give much fuck about other people’s perceptions and projections of how we utilize our personal energies and bodily agencies. This moment reminded me that though the Virgo-Pisces axis is about our sense of service to something bigger than ourselves, it should not necessarily be dictated by something other than our soul-self. At the end of the reading, I received a card below which resonated deeply with where I am and my current processes surrounding the idea of my sense of service to myself, and eventually to the world.
With Radical Rebirth, Still, I Rise
Shahir
20200927 @ 1950
In the previous post, I wrote about the process of reclaiming joy and reinventing the story when it comes to dealing with certain past relationships and living my life authentically. I also shared a lot of new engagement with my astrological study and its community during the season.